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I\u2019m pretty sure he\u2014or she\u2014or just it<\/em>\u2014<\/em>is on to me. It\u2019s waiting, lurking. White and red\u2014 always there in the background. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s always there when you least expected it– or I guess most expect it but least want it. Addictive, no doubt. But there\u2019s no Sgt. General\u2019s warning; where would you even put it? No, this censorship is a result of free speech, a result of a free market. This nightmare is a result of the free world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And even worse is that it knows me well. I haven\u2019t told it anything\u2014it doesn\u2019t know my name, and I\u2019ve never confirmed an address, I\u2019ve made explicitly sure to cover all<\/em> my tracks. But it\u2019s asked around. It\u2019s found out from others\u2014others I\u2019ve trusted<\/em>\u2014<\/em>and now it knows everything about me. It knows what I want to see, what I want to hear; it knows me so well it blends in to the background, so I barely notice it\u2019s even there. But it knows no boundaries; when I\u2019m idle for a little too long, it gives me a nudge. Hey, are you still there?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

And as part of the \u201cfree\u201d world it may be completely uncensored, but I know it\u2019s hiding something. I know it has an agenda, no matter what the world thinks, no matter what society thinks. I don\u2019t know what it wants, and I don\u2019t even know how I\u2019d even find that out. But I know there\u2019s something deeper, something that goes all the way to the top. Maybe even farther. The conspiracy of all conspiracies. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

And how do you get away from this unknowable, all-knowing being, you ask? You can\u2019t. It\u2019s everywhere, watching, Big Brother, 1984, whatever you call it. It\u2019s there in the air we\u2019re breathing right now, passing through us without a second guess, without missing a beat. It\u2019s there when you sleep, when you eat, when you\u2019re just bored out of your mind and procrastinating. In fact, it\u2019s even more vicious when you\u2019re bored. It turns into an endless abyss that drags you in just when it knows you\u2019re trying to avoid other work. It brings to the table things you didn\u2019t even know you wanted right when you want them: Let\u2019s try 21 different lunchables<\/em>; TikToks that make me lightly blow air out of my nose<\/em>; give up on your dreams and become a baker<\/em>. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Exactly what I want when I didn\u2019t know I wanted it. I hate to admit it, but the YouTube algorithm knows me better than I know myself.
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I\u2019m pretty sure he\u2014or she\u2014or just it\u2014is on to me. It\u2019s waiting, lurking. White and red\u2014 always there in the background. It\u2019s always there when you least expected it– or I guess most expect it but least want it. Addictive, no doubt. But there\u2019s no Sgt. General\u2019s warning; where would you even put it? No, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":1144,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1143"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1143"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1143\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1151,"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1143\/revisions\/1151"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1144"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1143"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1143"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/girlwriter.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1143"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}